The illusion of my childhood

I remember those years
When I had the illusion
That feelings of insecurity
would age with the years

Now that I am nearing
my twenties I just want to
say what an idiot I was
for holding onto such hopes

It does get better
gradually changed into
I have to work for it
Not such an easy task

It would be nice if the
few friendships I have gained
would not cause me
any harm or form of pain

All I ever really wanted
was to enjoy some company
that would somehow last
Is that too much to ask